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I am a whiner.

Wow, first new post after almost a year and I start with this – holy self-deprecation, Batman!!

It’s true – I am a whiner and all my friends know it. I love cribbing all the time about how fucked up my life is, how everything is  going wrong, etc etc. It’s not that I don’t know this too (duh, I am blogging about it, ain’t I?). But every time I promise myself that I will stop whining, within an hour I am back to my whining ways.

But, you know when I am most ashamed about my whining habits? When I see people living on the streets, kids running around naked, month-old babies lying on the sidewalks – looking at their lives, I realise my  life has been easy  beyond comparison. I feel like helping them, I feel I should give them money or something, but beyond giving alms to a few beggars, I have done precious little till now.

I can afford to empty out the contents of my wallet to these unfortunate people (at least, for a while) and their need is definitely greater than mine. So why don’t I do it? Is it because I am selfish? Sometimes, I tell myself that if I give money to them, most of it will go to the local goons organising these begging rings (yeah, we have them in India), but that I think is just rationalising after the fact. So maybe,I am selfish after all. But if that is so, what that does say about the rest of us – I don’t see many opening up their wallets either.

Back to Mumbai

So I am going to Mumbai again – after almost a whole year. Though for this past year I have kept on whining about how much I miss Mumbai, but now that I am going back, I am filled with trepidation (Wow, big word!).

The fact is,  as has kinda become routine for me, I still haven’t fixed accommodation arrangements, so when I land in Mumbai I will be basically a refugee. I am bunking for the night at my old place with my old roommate, so I am not exactly destitute, but I better find some acco quick as I have only 1 day to move before office starts.

Wish me luck!

Not Cool Enough

This is in reference to my previous post titled “1 Year Later” – Aggghh, that sound a little too like the formal letters we had to write in the ManCom classes.

Well the thing is – my girlfriend read that post and her reaction is, and I quote verbatim – “I liked it but it’s just that it seemed that you pretended to be much more cool than you really are and as a result it didn’t feel genuine!“

So there you have, right from the horse’s mouth (just an expression), it’s official – I am not cool (as if everyone didn’t know that already!).

And henceforth I will not pretend to be cool either. ( )

JBS No More….

Sorry Vamsi, no more videos for you

PS: Since I can’t stay unhappy for too long, here’s something funny I read.

Life Sucks, continued

Since we are on the topic of life sucking, let me just inform you that last Friday I broke my glasses (-7.5 dioptre power bitches!) and got a huge cut over my eye (OK, not so huge but it bled like hell). So currently I am at home (that’s a good thing – mom’s cooking YuM!), will miss a few classes (another good thing – my life doesn’t really suck does it?). But unfortunately because of this entire debacle I have to miss performing in GGP tonight and that really sucks!

Oh and I am also missing French class, but more on that later.

PS: For the uninitiated, GGP = Alumni Night and maybe next year I will tell you what GGP stands for, if I get to be there.

Life Sucks, In General!!

“Life Sucks, in General” – it was mid-November and this was my status message in GTalk. Surprisingly (cos no one ever cares to inquire about my well-being), quite a few people asked me whether I was OK or not. Maybe it was cos that the Placement Week was just over and they thought I was sad that I had screwed it up royally. Well, it wasn’t – I was pissed off cos  I was having a huge fight with my gf. But the strange thing is that, since then I have realised that this sentence seems to fit almost every aspect of my life. Not a single day has gone by that I haven’t said about something or the other – “Life Sucks, in General”! Is it just me whining more than usual, or maybe nowadays life DOES suck all the time?