First Love Story

“What the hell were you thinking?”

“You are blaming me? You are actually blaming me?”

“This is rich! You are acting as if you have done nothing wrong – as if you should be praised, rewarded even!”

“Of course not. Do you think that after all this time, I even expect a single word of praise from anyone around here? You are the one who will do great things. My only job is to fawn around you and Father. The only purpose of my existence is to stuff your oversized egos!”

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“How can you say that? You know what you mean to me – I care about you, you are my whole life! It’s just that – why do you have to make everything so hard?”

“Bullshit! You just pretend to care about me. Be honest – would your life had been any different if I wasn’t there? And talking about making life difficult, all I have ever done is to try to think out things for myself, do what I feel is right. I don’t care what anyone else says, including you and your Father. And precisely because of this Father is so pissed off with me.”

“But why do you have to do that? Why must you disregard everyone else’s opinion? And you specially make it a point to do exactly opposite of what Father says!”

“I don’t like someone else enforcing His arbitrary decisions over every aspect of my life.”

“Now don’t be like that. You know Father just tells us to do what He thinks is best for us. Has doing what Father told us ever harmed us? Besides, it’s not as if we don’t have any freedom at all. We still do pretty much what we want to. It’s just that, in some cases there are some restrictions – is it too much trouble to toe the line those few times?”

“Why would there be any restriction at all? Why can’t we be in charge of our own lives? And when there are restrictions, why can’t He explain the reasons for them? He just dictates, “Don’t go there, Don’t touch this, Don’t eat that.” Is it too much to ask for, that once in a while He explain why?”

“Why? Why do you always need a reason, a logic behind every decision? Can’t you take something just on Faith? People do do things for no reason at all.”

“No one does anything for no reason. Either you don’t know why you are doing it or you don’t want to tell what the real reason is.”

“Well you can keep on arguing about logic and reason all you want. But look what your logic and reasoning has got us into!

We have been given marching orders. Father has decided that we can’t live here anymore. We will have to fend for ourselves from now on. No more free meals, no more living in the heavenly paradise. But it’s ok, right? Now we can be self-sufficient – making all our decisions for ourselves. No one to tell us what to do, where to go, what to eat. Complete freedom! Lucky us!”

“So He’s making you leave too?”

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“That’s not fair! You didn’t do anything. It was all me! It’s not your fault that I didn’t listen to Father; it’s not your fault that I disobeyed His direct order; it’s not your fault at all! Why are you being punished for what I did? It’s not fair, it’s just not fair!”

“Listen to me – Father has NOT told me to leave. He said that YOU have to leave here forever and never come back. I can stay if I want to or I can leave with you and never return as well.”

“So you have a choice.”

“Some choice!”

“I don’t mind leaving – actually it will be a relief to leave this so called “Abode of Perfection”. But why do you want to come with me? You like this place – you love this place. You don’t mind listening to Father’s dictums. Really, I don’t know why you are leaving!”

“You are asking me that? You know I can’t stay without you. Father throwing you out is as good as Him throwing me out! You are the only woman in my life – I have to follow wherever you go.”

“Oh, stop being a drama queen! Do you honestly believe I can’t see through you? You don’t need me, you never did – all that really matters to you is being in Father’s good books. You love Father; you love this place. You love the comfortable life you can lead here.

You stay here – you get everything you want as long as you are obedient to Father’s whims; and you are pretty good at that! You come with me and what do you get? Untold hardships, danger at every step, misery in every moment of your life!”

“I don’t care! Yes, if I stay here I will be comfortable, I will never have to worry about anything. Every day will be as comfortable as I have ever known. But if I stay here, I won’t have you! How can you think, that without you, even the comforts of heaven can hold any meaning to me?”

“Why do you need me anyways? What have I ever given you? You said it right now – I enjoy making your life difficult. You will be much happier without me to ruin your life in every step. And don’t worry, I am sure that as soon as I leave, Father will make sure that you have another woman to be with you.”

“But I don’t want another woman, I want you!”

“Now you are being childish. And have you ever thought, that if you come with me, how much angry Father will be? He will be sure to make both our lives difficult. Soon we will rue the day you chose me over Him.”

“I know that. But I don’t have an option! Despite a hundred reasons against it and although I can’t figure out any reason for it – I have to come with you. Whatever’s in your fate, will be in mine too.”

“No, it will not. I know that I have done nothing wrong. But since Father thinks otherwise and has decided that I can’t stay here – I will leave. I will stand by my decision. But I will not allow you to suffer for my actions, especially when you don’t even understand why I did, what I did. You may care about me, you may want to accompany me – but I cannot let you join in my rebellion.

Let me go and don’t follow me. You will be happy.”

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“Thank you for coming with me.”

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“You are welcome.”

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“I love you Adam.”

“I love you too Eve.”

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